Sunday, January 31, 2010
after reading ur blog post , i am fighting back tears . this wuld be a war im sure to lose . i noe you love me , i love you too . i am reli mean to be feeling like this . now the tears are coming back again . i dowan to worry anyone , cos tt wuld mean i am a burden . i dowan to be one . i am lousy , bad , mean , the worst and bad .
sorry but i was born like tt . a loser .
i want another life but i must be able to bring someone along , ChinnakritChua . nobody has ever treated me the way he does , love me the way he does and make me love him the way i do . seriously i love him . now i just want things to go back to how they were last time . or if i culd just re-live tt day . our first movie tgt . tt wuld be enough for me . but i cant . i want you here with me . i need a shoulder to cry on , but there is noone . i want to just cry out loud , cry all my troubles away . but i cant .
i rmb everything tt happened during the movie tt day . he held my hand . he lent me his shoulder . and the time i gave him tt jar of stars , he gave me the drawing . izit all gone ? i dowan it to be gone . forever , it will stay in my heart .
although now tears are just dripping down my face , i'll have to pretend nothing happened .
why is 170909 so special ? it was the day i started loving him . the day he became my special one . happiest day of my life . im reli lucky to have you ..
i love you ..
i wun go on Wednesday .
